More from the journal I kept on my way to Morocco
June 23, 2013
I want to travel forever. On the flight to Paris with my students and co instructors. Just looked out the window and was, in fact still am –able to see this confusing and beautiful body of water. It appears to be
water land painted with sewage thirsting for water. The sun is setting and so there is a brush stroke of faded orange to my left. I have the window seat and the leisure of controlling 2 windows. My fortune abounds and gratitude follows. I am being paid to be at this place. Where I can see the private moment where water clasps hands with sky. Their palms linger and they are intimate. I crave that intimacy with people and with the earth. Living in an open place with people and love. The sigh that follows hold my continued journey toward peace. I am fortunate to be on this journey. I am fortunate to known that this journey exists. peace, like happiness is a journey not a destinations. So happy to be on this journey.
We’ve been traveling for almost 24hours and some rando woman just scowled at me for brushing my teeth in the sink. I wanted to yell, “hey lady! you want to be next to me in an hour or two?! My breath will be as funky as this bathroom and armpits 10x’s worse!” I feel like a terrible person but I just caught a cat nap on the floor of an airport in Paris. I’m greasy, bloated, and I just want to be done moving. The group of kids have been great. Too great. I wonder what’s going to go wrong and when. Something smells funny. It could have something to do with not having showering and the leftover smoked salmon wrapper in the garbage.
On the plane form Paris to Rabat. Je suis fatigue. Je suis fatigue. Je suis fatigue. Tengo sueno. Deseo different… I want something different. I want to stop moving. I want the *water in my ear to drain. I want the pain from it being there to stope. Je suis fatigue. I am tired of doing this alone. I want to experience life with my person. Where are you. I need you. Je suis fatigue.
In the Hotel Darna for the evening. Thus concludes the journey from Seattle to Rabat via Paris. I still have water in my ear. It’s ringing now. Will purchase alcohol –isopropyl tomorrow to try and dehydrate or rather evaporate the water from my ear canal. Not tired at all but I should get some sleep. Excited to hear morning prayers.